Hating you more than myself

After this mess, this tornado in me 

Heart puked out of my body

Soul lost in the gloom of wintertime

Being alone empties my mind

Head spinning and thoughts too loud

In the emptiness peace is found

Hollow and shallow but free

That's what my heart, mind and body seem to be

Seeing the light but not being there

Reaching for it but not far enough

It's really a pity you didn't care

Because hating you more than myself is kinda rough

You Were Like Snow

It was wonderful and mesmerizing

I welcomed your addicting touch

I finally found what I was craving

But it  all slowly dissolved in our sleep

It felt passionate and surreal

My anxiety had been satisfied

My desires I had to reveal

The sunrays melted those emotions

The glance of a fulfilling night

While slowly awaking entangled

We departed in the sunlight

And it all just melts away like snow

CLEANSING

I was wrong,
It was all about the afterglow
Until we found the aftermath

I was hurt,
It turned out it was nothing
Until I thought it was something

I have regrets,
Since I realised it was all in my head

I'm brokenhearted,
Since I gave up on having hope

I'm me,
Just me

Without you,
Without the thought of you

My head, my heart, my soul,
Now cleansed from your demon.

Looking Back

A year has come and gone

Without you by my side

I have tried to stay strong

But I have to admit sometimes you do cross my mind

Sometimes you even haunt me in my dreams

I don't want you there but my subconscious does

A year went by and still like yesterday it seems

The day I realise it wasn't real and true love

Looking back I just really don't care

I can say I did learn and I've lived on

But still what you did just wasn't fair

Still I forgave and forgot, a new dawn

Now I'm happy and feel so free

Nothing can tie me down any longer

I finally know who I want to be

And realised that I'm so much stronger