The Lost One

She wanders,

Searching

For a solemn place

For her 

& her beer.

An oasis

Between the people

Rushing by,

Without a glance 

At the sky.

Just walking

Straight,

Without taking in

Their surroundings

Or her.

There she sits alone

With her beer,

Waiting

For nothing,

Just watching.

Trying to understand

The world,

The people.

There she sits alone

With her beer,

Silent

But her thoughts 

Are all so loud.

Hating you more than myself

After this mess, this tornado in me 

Heart puked out of my body

Soul lost in the gloom of wintertime

Being alone empties my mind

Head spinning and thoughts too loud

In the emptiness peace is found

Hollow and shallow but free

That's what my heart, mind and body seem to be

Seeing the light but not being there

Reaching for it but not far enough

It's really a pity you didn't care

Because hating you more than myself is kinda rough

CLEANSING

I was wrong,
It was all about the afterglow
Until we found the aftermath

I was hurt,
It turned out it was nothing
Until I thought it was something

I have regrets,
Since I realised it was all in my head

I'm brokenhearted,
Since I gave up on having hope

I'm me,
Just me

Without you,
Without the thought of you

My head, my heart, my soul,
Now cleansed from your demon.

Looking Back

A year has come and gone

Without you by my side

I have tried to stay strong

But I have to admit sometimes you do cross my mind

Sometimes you even haunt me in my dreams

I don't want you there but my subconscious does

A year went by and still like yesterday it seems

The day I realise it wasn't real and true love

Looking back I just really don't care

I can say I did learn and I've lived on

But still what you did just wasn't fair

Still I forgave and forgot, a new dawn

Now I'm happy and feel so free

Nothing can tie me down any longer

I finally know who I want to be

And realised that I'm so much stronger