Das Monster

Lichter in der Entfernung, am anderen Ufer, so weit weg, eine grosse Distanz, dunkles Wasser trennt sie von der Erleuchtung. Alleine mit den Füssen baumelnd über dem Wasser, das immer wieder wellenartig steigt und sinkt, sitzt sie in Gedanken versunken in der nächtlichen Finsternis. Eine Träne kullert ihrer Wange hinab und fällt ins Wasser, wo sich Ringe ausdehnen. Sie blickt hinab in die Tiefe, scheint verloren zu sein. Das tiefe Wasser würde sie gerne in sich hinein ziehen, sie nie wieder loslassen, ihr die dunkle Seite zeigen bis sie zu atmen vergisst. Sie will nicht mehr, kann nicht mehr, sieht aber erkennt nichts mehr. Sie schwebt schon seit langem an der Grenze, sie ist fast tot, keine Wiederbelebung ist noch möglich. Nicht einmal das lebendige Wasser kann sie noch wachrütteln. Wo auf dem Weg hat sie alles verloren und hinter sich gelassen? An welcher Kreuzung bog sie falsch ab? Wieso lässt sie das Monster nicht mehr los? Die Narben seiner Krallen sind tief und immer noch blutig.

Looking Back

A year has come and gone

Without you by my side

I have tried to stay strong

But I have to admit sometimes you do cross my mind

Sometimes you even haunt me in my dreams

I don't want you there but my subconscious does

A year went by and still like yesterday it seems

The day I realise it wasn't real and true love

Looking back I just really don't care

I can say I did learn and I've lived on

But still what you did just wasn't fair

Still I forgave and forgot, a new dawn

Now I'm happy and feel so free

Nothing can tie me down any longer

I finally know who I want to be

And realised that I'm so much stronger

-The Truth About Forever-

 Please don't leave me here alone

To bleed in my sorrow

Don't forget you're my world

I will love you 'til the end of time

Yes I may be young and shallow

But I can grant you paradise if you let me

Just don't go

 I don't want to lie awake every night

Thinking of you

Never forgiving myself

For being so shy

Not seizing my chance

Not seeing how much joy you give me

Insomnia will take over

Nightmere's will haunt me forever

If I let you go

 I don't want to wander through life

Hating myself, not being able to love

Ever again

Staring out the window

Waiting

Always waiting

I'm never gonna give up on you

 Yes I'll cry

I've cried

But it's not over yet

It won't be

I'm gonna do everything

To save what we have

To show you 

That I love you

With all my heart

And my soul

Just don't leave me

And we will be endlessy happy together

Forever

Searching...

 In the beginning there was just a girl

Not wanting to give her heart away

Just her body

No strings attached

Pleased through pleasing

Giving away all she's got

Not thinking twice

Just doing

Never looking back

Then someone turned her world around 

Everything got thrown off track

Now she doesn't just give and take

Now she thinks twice

If not too much

She's even scared to touch

It's just 'cause of this someone

That she's learning to believe 

In love, caring

But now she's shy and so timid

And can't turn back 

Into the whore she was

Even if he wants her to

Now she's searching

For her wild fire

Her passion

And her sensual seduction

HOPE

No, I'm not gonna give up

I'm no gonna back down

I'm not gonna stop running

Until I fall to the ground

I will still believe 

Til there's nothing to believe in

I will hope 

Until i really have to leave

Hope will keep me going

Nothing's lost yet

I won't make a mistake

Or anything I will regret